Unapproachable and uppity were the words that were used
To say they stung would not be close to an abuse
How could this be the impression you see?
I stay to myself, yes. Yet shyness and newness are what motivate me
I’m actually rather awkward until we get close
Yet you wouldn’t know since you simply supposed
So what if I sit and wait… look and observe
Are these the traits you place upon me as reserved?
No no those were not the words you said…unapproachable and uppity
You felt those fit me instead
Yet did you ever make a step towards to truly get to know or to see?
Ever once did you actually try and speak to me?
So now I’ve been told what it is some may think
I walk away upset and trying to blink
Fall back tears no pain will I show
It may lead to more hurt than I already know
I play the funny jokester at times
She who always has just the right come back line
Little do they know I wear these roles well
To hide the shy girl inside who swore me never to tell
Of her life as the nerd girl, the last one to be picked
Who made people laugh to avoid being tricked
Tricked into thinking friends she made were truly her own
When all they really wanted was to raise her hopes then send her back home
That shy girl is me she’s still in here hiding
Behind the laughter the jokes the one almost crying
Yet I put her back inside tell her it’ll be okay
I’ll make it better we’ll make it for just one more day
So you see what you want and I’ll be who I be
For it is she I protect when you’re judging me