Faith is believing God is working behind the seen…behind what my eyes can perceive and what my mind can imagine. When all I see is delay, denial and doubt what I see is not what God has planned for me it is not the end result.
His plans and foresight are so far beyond me that there are times He simply can’t let me know what’s in the works. I look back on my life and remember the times when if I knew what God was doing I would have found a way to interfere simply because I would have felt I knew better. Sometimes God may delay the results we want simply because we are not ready to receive them yet.
I remember when I was determined to move out of my Grandmother’s home. I couldn’t stand it there and felt that I needed to be ‘on my own’. Yet at every turn I saw nothing but denial. I couldn’t find a place, I couldn’t afford the places I found. I felt like God was denying me my deepest desire but in reality He was simply delaying it.
I was a hot-headed, rebellious teenager who only wanted to move to try and prove she was big enough to do it. God knew this would not end well for me and that delay helped me to mature, find my way and learn what I needed so that when the time came my move was not motivated by anger. When I finally moved out of my Grandmother’s house it was because it was time not because I was trying to escape.
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28 KJV
God saw my good in the end of the situation when all I could see was the delay. He knew that the plans He had for me would require the foundation I gained by staying. The discipline, the know-how and the inner strength I learned then helped me in having my own home. So when I get discouraged by the delay of things I remember what I see is not what He sees.
There are times in life when we make plans based on what we want for our lives and our futures. We check things off, add this or that without asking or even considering if our desires are in line with His. I’ve been in a place recently where I felt all was well. Everything was going according to plan. Yet it was my plan – not His. Denial of what I wanted started to weigh on me. Why wasn’t God on my side? Why didn’t things go the way I thought they should? I knew the why and I even knew how it should have been…
Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established. Proverbs 16: 3 KJV
Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn, your vindication like the noonday sun. Psalms 37:5-6 KJV
The plan I had wasn’t complete, God had not been given reign over my decisions and basically it was time for a bit of ummm….restructuring of what I thought was already perfect. God stepped in and began to move, rearrange, replace and redesign and guess what – those denials became approvals. Favor began to flow through my life and His plan to give me the best proved to be far better than my own.
I’m a person who needs a timeframe. When will it happen? How long will it take? What if we meet a delay? You get the idea. So when I can’t see the end result ahead of me there are moments when I begin to panic. I forget that God doesn’t need me to see his plan or even share it with me in order for it to succeed.
There have been so many times when my doubt in what God could do has worked against me. I try to ‘fix‘ things or somehow convince myself that I can help God along. I mean seriously! ME?!?! Help God!?!?
Behind The Curtain
There are times when trying to know all of what is happening behind the curtain of our lives isn’t needed. The end results are what matter. God may at times leave us on the other side of that curtain in our lives as he works on things. His intent is to help – not harm us. He is always working towards our prosperity – not our loss.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 KJV
Remember God is always working Behind The Seen…