Unapproachable and uppity were the words that were used
To say they stung would not be close to an abuse
How could this be the impression you see?
I stay to myself, yes. Yet shyness and newness are what motivate me
I’m actually rather awkward until we get close
Yet you wouldn’t know since you simply supposed
So what if I sit and wait… look and observe
Are these the traits you place upon me as reserved?
No no those were not the words you said…unapproachable and uppity
You felt those fit me instead
Yet did you ever make a step towards to truly get to know or to see?
Ever once did you actually try and speak to me?
So now I’ve been told what it is some may think
I walk away upset and trying to blink
Fall back tears no pain will I show
It may lead to more hurt than I already know
I play the funny jokester at times
She who always has just the right come back line
Little do they know I wear these roles well
To hide the shy girl inside who swore me never to tell
Of her life as the nerd girl, the last one to be picked
Who made people laugh to avoid being tricked
Tricked into thinking friends she made were truly her own
When all they really wanted was to raise her hopes then send her back home
That shy girl is me she’s still in here hiding
Behind the laughter the jokes the one almost crying
Yet I put her back inside tell her it’ll be okay
I’ll make it better we’ll make it for just one more day
So you see what you want and I’ll be who I be
For it is she I protect when you’re judging me
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14 thoughts on “How Could This Be The Impression You See?”
Great post! So relatable…I'm an introvert. And I've heard those words before too. Glad you were able to release through your writing! Blessings to you!
Thanks so much…it can be hard to explain to others how you feel in certain situations so writing becomes my outlet. God Bless You as well…
Sometimes I hide through smiles and tears very much. Sometimes I'm not ok but I say or at like I am. I love your writing!
Yes. There can be times keeping a mask on for other people can be tiring.
Thank you Tamara…I appreciate your comment!
This is a really great post! I like your writing style and how raw it is 🙂
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Thank you so much! I truly appreciate that…
Beautifully said. Thank you for opening your heart. You captured this in a way others can easily understand, even if they don't struggle the same way. That's a gift. Thanks for sharing. Stopping by from SITS.
Thank you so much and thank you for coming by… #SITSgirls
Those comments make me mad! The characteristics of yourself that you describe are classic introvert characteristics – and there is nothing wrong with them! Of course, we should generally be friendly and approachable, but to sit back and observe and think before you jump in is perfectly fine. Not everyone is a life-of-the-party, hey-I-just-met-you-and-now-we're-best-friends kind of person – and there is nothing wrong with that! (OK, getting off my soapbox…)
Thank you so much…I've always been this way and yet I've always been judged as being uppity, boogie or stuck up. after you hear that a few times and know that inside that isn't who you are it begins to hurt. This last time I felt so blind-sided by it. I almost didn't know how to react or recover. So I wrote. That is my release. That's how I regroup and try to get back out there. Thanks again for stopping by and your words of support and encouragement. xoxoxo
I too hide behind smiles and laughs to get through hurt and pain sometimes…
Thanks for sharing this.
XO
I'm trying to work on it but it can be hard when people see me as something so far from who I truly am…Thank you for your comment xoxo